hai, i realise that i dun really have ppl around me that i can call "friends" any more... its near christmas but all i'm doing is fantically trying to find some1 to spend the festive with... because i realise that NO 1 is going to ask me if i want to go out for a movie or anything of the sort. i finally realise that after experienceing a "friendless" period during primary sch and a "friendful" period during secondary school, i seem to be more suited to be a friendless person... at the very least, you do not feel lonely when no one asked you to go out for some fun cause u r friendless to begin with, than to have ppl who u call friends but won't even think of your existence when they are organising outings... i decided that i rather revert to my old self than to force myself to laugh everyday and act like a clown.
this is wrote when i was feeling highly emotional, so i may be a little harsh but its wats happening...
